random impressions

back in the saddle. or so it seems.

next week i’ll start with my final thesis. and just today i found the perfect motto for this time of hard work and concentrated thinking:

 ”Sometimes it is noble to sleep in the crawlspace of your desk”
(Hari Kunrzu: Transmission)

ich könnte stundenlang hier sitzen. einfach sitzen und starren. auf das haus gegenüber. hoch in den himmel. runter zu den autos. starren und sonst nichts tun. nichts denken.

wo ist mein reset-knopf?

i didn’t get the job i sooo badly wanted. apparently all my internships, my year abroad, my language skills, my studies, my journalistic scholarship, my personality, my everything is not good enough for them.
if i sound embittered it’s because i am.

i really wanted to do this. work as a journalist. radio, online, television. damn it.
and they did not give a reason - so how should i know how to improve?

i guess i gotta move on. have to. will. how did randy pausch say?

“brick walls are there for a reason: they let us prove how badly we want things.”

and they are going to stop those who don’t want it badly enough.

 i’m not going to be one of them.

just saw an old commercial from the 1950s and was torn between laughing out loud and being taken aback.
there was this housewife making pudding and the voice over said:

“there are only two questions which are essential for women:
what shall i wear today? and
what shall i cook?”

ah, wasn’t life simple back then…

oh! my! god! i’m still out of breath because this made me laugh so hard. flula - you’re the best and beyond crazy. ;)

(the world seems to be so small…because apparently he lives with david giuntoli who played a gay soldier in last week’s grey’s anatomy (4×14 “the becoming”) - hottie)